Bri (operantbehavior) wrote,

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Sometimes I still think there's something beautiful in fandom. I know, I know, laugh if you like, but you have to admit, we live in frightening times. The past two weeks have been tremendously difficult for me, probably the worst I've had since I came here. Between mom's problems, the medication, the overdose, the hospitals, the bill collectors and my slipping grades, dumping Nate was barely a blip on the radar. It's been hard.

I've come to realize that anything that can offer you a reprieve, anything at all, is something to be cherished. The option to slip into a better world when I need to is a blessing. It keeps me together when things get really awful, even if it's just something small enough to drag a smile out of me. It makes it easier to get up in the morning and deal with life falling down around me. Sometimes I think we're a fortunate generation for the sheer versatility of our imaginings. Thank god for the internet.

Mom got out today. :] Thank god thank god thank god. I was so scared. We haven't dealt with this since I first came to school. I almost didn't know how to cope, it's been that long. Sometimes I dearly miss being around people that understand my situation, though god knows my friends here try. I can't expect them to know what to say, but it makes me all the more appreciative for the people that do. (Thank you for letting me lean on you, guys. I love you all more than you'll ever know.)

Dunno if I'll be perfect this semester, but that's okay. That's okay. I don't have to be perfect. Just adequate. Right? Yeah. I'm okay with that.

Where the hell did I put those interview questions of Bri's? You think I forgot, BUT I HAVEN'T. I will answer them and you'll be like WHOA, SHE ANSWERED THEM. Yeah.
Tags: fandom, fml, friends, love, mom
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